Today is Monday!!!!! It is also a special day, b/c I'm alive and I'm sure its someone's birthday somewhere or anniversary or promotion or whatever. So this weekend I had a great time. I also made a huge step in my life...I stopped worrying. I stopped worrying about the guy I like, and my family and friends getting hurt for no reason. I worry a lot, but I"m not anymore. I love my family and friends still, but I'm not letting myself get sick to tears over them, b/c my worry does not keep them safe. I stopped worrying about getting the guy I like I should say, I still like him...a lot and this weekend helped me to realize I can enjoy liking him, and not ruin the fun of having a crush by worrying about: will I see him again.
This weekend also showed me that maybe, just maybe I'm an attractive person. I was a little lonely and sad at first, and I met a lot of guys this weekend, and some were great and said some great things, but, unlike Dr. Meredeth Grey, me being a bit lonely and a guy saying the right things does not make me forget who and what I really want. So these guys from this weekend were great confidence boosters, but like I said to Candice, my list of future boyfriends and/or husbands is not expanding at the moment, auditions are over. I know who and what I like and I'm secure in that, and I highly doubt it will change anytime soon.
On another note I had two nights of the weirdest dreams. The first night of dreams came true the next day!!!! It was so weird and it was about the guy I like!!! I was like freaking out, how did that happen??? There were only two differences between the dream and what happened in real life, but still they weren't that big of differences. It was so freaky!!!! I dunno I'm feeling destined right now to be with who I want and need.
Currently listening: Elevator By Hot Hot Heat Release date: By 05 April, 2005
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