Ooops!!! Episode 1: Calling Dr. Grey

Hmmmm.....well. I'm writing today I haven't written in a while and how do I start??? Well we all make mistakes right? Actually I know the answer to this question and yes we do. I should know, I have made my fair share, but I just made another, but this one is taking the cake. Ok, first off calm down....I figure if you're reading this you know me and you also know about Grey's Anatomy and Dr. Meredith Grey who well, sleeps around whenever she feels lonely after pineing for McDreamy. I like Meredith have my own McDreamy...however, unlike Dr. Grey I do not sleep around. So I just wanted to allow everyone to breathe a sigh of relief. I am a virgin and I plan to continue down this path of virginity until marriage people, that is not going to change. However, I did make a mistake with a guy...I gave him my number and he asked to see me again...yeah so to most people its not a big deal, but hey I'm not most people and to me it is. My friend Candice and I went out on Thursday night, I was able to since our ILLINI men's b-ball team won! and I was leading in my bracket scores!!!!, anyway we went out. I met a guy....we talked...I soon found out he wanted more than just to talk, but I didn't give in...but he made feel bad that I didn't. I dunno it's bothering me...alot. I guess it shouldn't, but it left me feeling really vulnerable, I mean is that what everyone wants...sex???? I can't give it so what does that mean for me? Then I was like thinking about J.A. the guy I really like and would love to go out with, but I was thinking what if J's the same??? Then what???? I only like him. So what do I do if he turns out to be jerk like the guy last night? Then I won't have anyone to like!!! I enjoy liking guys...I think I enjoy the crush more than actually being with a guy, well no, I think I would be very happy with J. I'm just thinking that I'm the last one left. The last person who thinks the way I do...oh well...I don't plan on changing anytime soon...if anything I'd become a Nun.

I'm just going to talk out loud... do you mind

so this is my friend connie's blog, but I can't post comments on it....she's suck a jerk to me...thanks connie: I'm just going to talk out loud... do you mind: "I'm just going to talk out loud... do you mind"

Love Episode V: Part 1~Tonight Tonight

Current mood: anxious Category: Life
I'm writing right now, b/c tonight is the night....that I'm going out to look for my guy, Candice is sick so I don't know if she is still going with me, but I hope so b/c boy hunting is no fun without friends...I know this cause I tried it alone one night, and it sucked...but I was rescued by some friends. So I need candice not to be sick and to be healthy. Right now I'm getting ready to leave so I'm not too late for my MCB 252 class. I hate school right now. I have an Italian Midterm coming up soon too. Great. I'm really nervous right now though, b/c when I see him tonight, if I see him, what do I do????? I have a very limited amount of time! How do I make a great impression and make a connection? Ya know I want like a number exchange or an I want to hang with you again or call me whenever to talk something....Aghhhh what to do? I'll update tonight.
Currently listening: Oh No By OK Go Release date: By 30 August, 2005

Love Episode IV: Unofficial Rainbows

Love Episode IV: Leprechans and Rainbows Current mood: curious

Hmmmm....a week has passed since the last post...I guess I will take the time to update the Love blog, I went out with my girls on Thursday night (mistake, was so tired on Saturday for the pageant.), anyways I went out to CO Daniel's a bar on well Daniel St. I was having a good time hoping and praying my college love would walk in....I'll break the suspence now...he didn't. But wait...was the night worth it you ask? Did I lose 8 hours of sleep for nothing? NO...as a matter of fact, a close...very close, friend of his was there instead, and his friend remembered me, and broke my hand (a whole nother story, its not really broken just felt like it) Who was also dress in oh so much green...ha ha (inside joke with Candice here) However, I think his friend is attracted to me...I don't know for sure, and I'm not trying to be like conceited, but I bump into his friend everywhere and I'm worried I'm giving his friend the wrong signals. I mean I do get excited to see his friend b/c that means the guy I really like might be around ya know? However, the way his friend greeted me on Thursday was very misleading. It was friendly, but flirty at the sametime, he asked for my number I gave it...should I not have given it? I mean that would be mean since we do know each other, and if I'm mean to him he might pass it on to the guy I like right? I'm confused...well this Weds. me and the girls are trying again I was told by his friend they might go out then, and we could meet up with them, but will his friend be expecting me to talk with him more? Or is his friend leading me to the Gold at the end of my rainbow???? I have no clue...I'll have updates.
Currently watching: Jarhead - Collector's Edition (Widescreen) Release date: By 07 March, 2006