Babies and Disney Songs

Kobe, my littliest cousin...though not for long.


I have Calculus homework due in about 18 hours. However, instead of working on it I began to download my favorite Disney songs. In doing so it caused me to think about my splendiferous childhood. In turn causing me to wish desperately to be a child once again. However, I can't be if I could I would have done it a long time ago. So then I got to thinking even more, also this thinking kept me far from calc. I began to think...when I have kids I'm gonna make sure I share all the things with them my wonderful mother shared with me. The music, the movies, the food, late weekend nights, and making comforter tents in the living room and eating our favorite take-out from the chinese place down the street. Sigh...Good Times. My children will be beautiful and grand, brilliant and inspired. I can't wait to have them and love them. In fact I feel like I already love them and whoever they turn out to be. I really really want to have kids. I used not to. In fact the desire to have children didn't hit me until I turned 20 really. Since then its something I think about from time to time, and I realize how great my want is to one day have a family of my own, secure and filled with love. I can see it. I want it. So thinking about my future family, and believing, knowing that it will happen for me one day is very reassuring. Reassuring because I worry that I won't fall in love or find that one special guy, but this gut-feeling that I will settledown and start my own family with someone helps me know deep deep down that I will...someday...find love. I hope so. No, I know I will, and guess all this waiting will make it all the better when its finally here. Oh! And he better appriciate it too, I mean I'm untouched like an action figure or special edition Barbie still in the original package...a rare find.
I also think about having kids so much probably because I work at an elementary school. I'm an America Reads tutor, I'm like a teacher's aide pretty much. I work with kindergarden through 3rd grade. The kids are so cute...well most are. I have a few who can be well...difficult. This one kid is such a whiner...and he is so disagreeable. Still while I have my least favorites I also have my faves. This one little girl in my kindergarden class is just so smart, but she's so quiet and unassuming, then you ask her something and she knows everything. She has surpassed everyother student in her class. She's also very creative and unique; for halloween she was a unicorn! I mean I would not have thought to be that. I was Tinkerbell...like every other little girl my age at 5. However, I find that most of the girls I teach are well very drama oriented. Its amazing how the drama starts at such a young age. Amazing. This one little girl is a compulsive liar, I mean she lies all the time!!! She will deliberately hurt herself or break something of her own just to blame it on another student...usually a boy. I find that boys for me are just easier to teach and get along with. They're simple, and actually boys stay pretty simple for the rest of their lives. Since teaching boys in kindergarden thru 5th grade and hanging out with guys in college, I see they are very much the same on both levels and this has helped me a lot in understanding them and dealing with college guys. Really it has. They like attention, and to feel like you're in awe of them or impressed by them regardless of their age. But at the same time to gain their respect you do have to show them that you aren't just a pretty face, show that you have some grit, be it sports or knowledge show them one good time, usually when you first meet is best, and you're pretty much set, they'll remember. Believe me one good time is enough. They like it that while you're impressed by them or something they've done, you still have some sass to sling at them, and you're not gonna blindly let them take charge. Seriously, regardless of what male you're working with this always works, its a type of power struggle. You're showing them that you recognize they have strength, power, intellect...whatever, but at the same time you have your own, and your giving them the lead, not letting them just take it. And be a bit coy with it too, it shows that you're still a girl, femminine, they need to see that, it keeps them interested. No joke it works, girls all have this power over males...its something that we all have, but believe me it takes practice, and the want to use it. I don't particularly like using it especially over my close family and friends that are guys, but everyonce and awhile I gotta break it out. We all do.
Anyways back to kids, I have some names on a list that I like too. I'm not gonna list them all here since so many peope like to steal them from me!!!! Still, here's a few: Lizzie Mae, Eddy James, Ava, Aeryn, Emma, Emmy, Brody, Bailey, Quinn, and Camdyn. That's it...no more, and only the first two are from my faves list. So yeah...leave them alone. I just can't wait to have babies one day that's all. Also I want to have boys...lots of boys. Ok, maybe like 3 and then 2 or 3 girls...wait. I don't want 6 kids, if I have 6 I might as well have one more to make it a good number 7. Yeah, that's the limit...ok maybe 8...I'm just saying since I have like a list of like a hundred names just so I can use a good amount of them. Besides I'm gonna be in good shape, plus I could adopt a few. Omg...its 2. I gotta go to bed.